Sunday, February 5, 2012

Placebo


This last week, I'd been feeling things that were all too familiar. Heart burn. Weird dreams. A change in sleeping patterns. After a few days of this, I realized that these things weren't going away and took a pregnancy test. At three o'clock in the morning. I knew what the result would be. Still, I was over the moon. I even woke up my husband.

I thought back to my first pregnancy. I remembered all the things that came with it; the sickness, exhaustion, dreams, heart burn, leg cramps, frequent urination. Just to name a few. I know what to expect. But I also know that every pregnancy is different. That is why, this afternoon, when I started not to feel so hot, I told myself there is no way I am sick already. Come four o'clock I was ready for bed. Again, I told myself no. You see, there is a difference between actually feeling a certain way and thinking you feel that way. I am determined to not let the stigma of pregnancy sickness get to me. Just like being in a bad mood. Take a moment, take a deep breath, and change your mindset.  

Now, If I wake up in a week with my face in the toilet, that's a different matter. I am determined to beat the sickness. Your brain can be your best friend or your worst enemy. Mind over matter, right?